...Life...

Kinda a long post...sorry...for the "Cliff Notes" version, scroll to the end of the post...

So I debated what to call this post…”Rough Start to a New Year…” “Endings and Beginnings “Ups and downs…” or maybe just “People Who Use Cook Meth in Other People’s Houses Should be Slowly Tortured…” …

…but after much reflection and lots and lots of thinking during my morning runs, I’ve decided that…its just life…

...I recently read a blog post of my dear cousin who lost her brother in January…she was wondering how you go on, how to blog about what happened last week when you feel so sad and empty inside and are trying to make sense of what happened…she felt guilty for trying to move on…like moving on was forgetting what happened and trying not to be sad was saying you didn’t care what happened when in fact its all you can think about….but life goes on, you don’t want it to, but it does….and so must you.

...So I wonder, how does one go on when one looses a brother so unexpectedly…when you loose a child….when a perfectly normal, healthy couple who so very much want a baby of their own can’t have one….when a baby you’ve been waiting/planning for is not given to you…when the world as you know it is turned completely upside down and inside out?

You just do…

...Recently the world of our little family was turned upside down and inside out. Long story short, two weeks ago we literally evacuated our home in Murray with just a few clothes…and Legos and a baby doll J and we have been spending the last few weeks in the basement of some friends of my parents. Nothing has been the same since…our house has been deemed uninhabitable; most of our belongings have been “quarantined” pending further investigation; and we have been thrust into a nebulous cloud of unknowns…

...How do you go on when you don’t know where to go?

...You just do…It’s life….you move on because you have to…you need to..

…We have chosen to move on to Holladay to set up our new residence…and are excited about the possibilities of the new place…but still long for the comfort of the house we lived in for 4 short months after 6 LONG months of renovation…

…We don’t know what’s going to happen to the Murray house….

…We are trying to go after the property manager whose negligence started this whole mess, but who knows if we’ll get anything out of her….we definitely can’t go after the tenants…

…but we know we can’t stop to feel sorry for ourselves because we have two little kids who are wondering why they can’t have any of their toys, or why we aren’t living in our house that daddy worked so hard on over the summer, or why we have to move to someplace new….but on the other hand they are excited about the attic with the pull down ladder like in “Toy Story 3” and the “Harry Potter” closet under the stairs…

…and they are excited about the new addition to our family that will hopefully arrive in early August. Molly says if the baby is a girl its going to sleep with her and if its a boy it’ll sleep with James…and she’s ready to be a big sister and she’ll help dress it and feed it and love it…this bit of news has been a ray of sunshine in an otherwise bleak winter…

…so in short…

….We are moving…

…again…

…and Molly is going to be a big sister this summer! And hey, the house in Connecticut finally sold!